My journey started in June 2019 when I detected a small lump in my left breast, but I ignored it, thinking that I could not have Breast Cancer since I was too young, absolutely fit, and my family did not have any history of cancer.
Breast Cancer Diagnosis
After three months, I visited my dermatologist for a routine visit, and I pointed out to her the lump in my left breast that was increasing in size. She immediately did a physical examination, and her face startled me because she looked worried. She asked to get my sonogram done immediately. The urgency made me rush to get the test done. The radiologist could detect something, and once the reports came, it was something of the highest grade and multiplying fast. I asked the radiologist what it was, and she asked me to meet the one-surgeon.
I returned home with the reports, thinking it might be wrong and that I could never get such a bad report card. I shared the reports with my husband and the family. We, very conveniently, at our dining table, rejected the reports. However, the seed of doubt was planted in our minds, so we thought we would meet the one-surgeon.
When I searched for an on-surgeon, I messaged our society groups, and within twenty minutes, I got three references for once-surgeons who deal with cancer. I connected with the family who referred the doctor to us and learned that there was a Breast Cancer survivor in my society. They connected us to the doctor, and we are very grateful.
The doctor did a physical examination and thought it was a tiny lump. He asked for a biopsy, and it looked like it was stage 1 Breast Cancer. The doctor asked us to get a PET scan done to know if it has spread to any other organ to be on the safer side. When he saw the PET scan reports, he said it had not spread but looked like stage 2 Breast Cancer. Every day, a new diagnostic test affirmed that the lump was cancerous.
I decided that come what may, whether I survive or not, I will ensure that I live each day to the fullest and give my best to the fight. Hence, I could withstand the new surprises the cancer journey was bringing us.
My husband was there with me. We met the survivor’s family, and they helped us feel better. My father-in-law was accompanying us on the doctor’s visit. My mother-in-law and bhuna-in-law were home, and it was difficult for them to absorb the cancer news, but when it was confirmed, they cried a lot. I decided not to cry in front of my family because that would make them feel weak. I also told them I didn’t want them to cry and give our best to the fight.
My parents were unaware of this news, and when we called and informed them about the Breast Cancer diagnosis, my father’s face fell, and my mother went away from the camera because she could not hold back her tears. I told them I did not want them to cry because their strength would make me survive. They all agreed in silence, and till the very end, they all gave a very tough fight against cancer, and I am proud of my family.
After my lumpectomy, my histopath report revealed stage 3 breast cancer, ER-PR negative, and HER 2 positive.
Breast Cancer Treatment
I was given Chemotherapy for six months. After that, my radiation started, and parallelly, my Targeted therapy was on for one year, wherein I was going for a drug infusion every 21 days.
In November 2020, I completed my treatment, and reports said that there was no trace of cancer and I just needed to go for follow-ups regularly.
The lymph nodes were removed with the lumpectomy, and I had limitations: I could not lift more than 5 kg and should not get bruises or mosquito bites in the hand because it would swell up. There was a Pain in my legs, and I used to feel extremely nauseous and weak. I had hair fall in my second cycle of Chemotherapy, so I got my head shaved because I had a baby at home and didn’t want any mess at home. Because of the drugs, I could not sleep well at night, and sleeping became challenging. During radiation, I had fatigue, darkness in the area where the radiation was given and Pain in the breast.
There is a lot of emotional turmoil that happens during the treatment. We need to connect with our loved ones, share what is bothering us and get over it. Sharing has a healing effect. I wrote blogs during my cancer journey and discovered the writer in me. It was a medium for me to vent out whatever I was going through or whatever emotional trauma I had. It started like that, but once I started publishing my blogs, they got accepted so well by the world that it gave me a lot of encouragement, and once I saw it was benefiting others, that was healing me.
My Son was my Motivation
One of the biggest things that made me happy was having my kid with me. Being a mother of a two-year-old kid, I did not want my kid to get ignored during the journey I was going through because, as a child, he needs a lot of care and attention. His presence turned out to be a boon for me, and it was because of his presence that I could sail through this journey. His happy face and smile made me forget all the pain I had. Even after coming from the office, my husband ensured that he was spending sufficient time daily because I could not give him time so that his learnings and milestones were not suffering. My being unwell made my husband and son’s bond stronger.
Life Lessons
I learned a lot of lessons on my cancer journey. I am working on a manuscript and looking forward to publishing a book about the lessons I have learned on my cancer journey.
Cancer came as a teacher and gave me so many life lessons. They say, “Our higher power decides our fate, but our choices and decisions decide our destiny, and cancer showed me that. My fate gave me cancer, but my choice and decision was how I took the entire journey. Cancer taught me that whatever challenge you have, you always have that decision in your hands.
Parting Message
Begin with the end in mind, even if you are in palliative care, and the doctor has told you that it’s hard, but even then, you have a choice of how you want to be remembered once you are on the death bed. I decided that whatever may come, I would not regret anything once I am on the deathbed, even if it comes after years or just after a month.
Connect more with yourself, and your only focus should be on doing what you like doing. Express gratitude and feel happy about the most minor things in your life. Energy flows where our attention goes, so if you want to invite positivity, focus on positive things.
Give your best every day. Caregivers should take care of themselves; don’t be too harsh on yourself while caring for your loved ones. To support your loved ones, you first need to be healthy.
